The next thing you know, the insecurity is in control not only of the established relationship, but its tendrils are reaching in and poking at the soft spots in the nascent one as well.
This time of year has a tendency to present the perfect conditions for me to question everything about my life. It's not a great time for me to be alone, but it's when my instincts tell me to withdraw from having to be present anywhere where I have to put on a mask to hide what's going on inside.
This week has been extra-specially rough on my emotional state for many reasons, one of which is the expiration date of my time in this house. I hadn't cried about it yet until last night. Last night the tears came. Last night I said the words out loud, "I hope I made the right decision,"… Continue reading How far I’ll go
I had a dream last night. It involved time travel. There was one of him and he was going through time collecting all of me at different ages and in different timelines. It was like a poly dream where he was still my only one, but he had several of me and he loved them… Continue reading Irreplaceable
When you find the source of your jealousy/insecurity, you can start doing the work to address why you behave the way you do.