Kinkstuff, Love & Relationships, Memoirs, Self-Discovery

Experiencing “top space” through hedonism

...there were moments when my every move stopped being about what I thought would get him excited, and became purely about what was driving my own pleasure.

Kinkstuff, Love & Relationships, Self-Discovery

I’m not allowed to hurt myself

I'm craving the escalation of everything. I want kisses with teeth. I want hugs with claws and texture. I don't want to be led, I want to be thrown, forced, and taken.

Kinkstuff, Love & Relationships, Self-Discovery

Why I think you want to hurt me

Do you sacrifice the pleasure of your flesh for the frisson of your power?

Humor, Kinkstuff, Love & Relationships

Phi-ty Shades Darker (SPOILERS)

I decided to smoke some pot and document my live reactions to the film 50 Shades Darker, which is now available on HBO, BTW. Below is the result. There WILL be spoilers here Oh good. She's still stammering and timid. I guess asserting herself with her former Dom didn't give her any confidence after the… Continue reading Phi-ty Shades Darker (SPOILERS)

Kinkstuff, Love & Relationships, Memoirs

The Exhibit

Is there a better museum for rare and priceless experiences than words on a page? I could try to preserve all the details - how we began, how many strikes from which implements, how he moved me about the room, how taut the rope felt on my skin, and the way my thighs ached as… Continue reading The Exhibit

Kinkstuff, Love & Relationships, Self-Discovery

Cold Water

I stammered and resisted. He grabbed hold of my wrist and pulled me toward the shower door. I watched as he pushed the handle away from "hot" to "cold" and held me there.

Kinkstuff, Love & Relationships, Self-Discovery

Tops and Strength and Vulnerability: a post-GRUE post-mortem post

Let's get organized.....Here's what I want to accomplish in this essay: 1) To share my thoughts on a recent discussion in which I both observed and later participated on the subject of Tops/Dominants and vulnerability 2) To explore my own thoughts on "strength" and "weakness" as it pertains to the concept of vulnerability and/or the… Continue reading Tops and Strength and Vulnerability: a post-GRUE post-mortem post