I want to submit because I want to feel control again. Sounds weird, right? Usually people talk about submission as the idea of giving up control.
Category: Self-Discovery
A love letter to my friends
The other day, I read the words "I deserve to be surrounded by people who appreciate me..." and saw a writing in which someone wrote a letter to her partner's partners. Two different writings that I've since lost track of. So, with the full disclosure of where this particular writing is coming from, understand that… Continue reading A love letter to my friends
Learning to love without solutions: further insights from a recovering codependent
Many years ago, I had a friend, Brian, who went through therapy and was able to accept that he had codependent tendencies. With his therapist, he began to set boundaries, and by talking about it with his friends, he kept cementing the new value-set in his brain. Problem was, Brian turned into a bit of… Continue reading Learning to love without solutions: further insights from a recovering codependent
Wipe the Glass (Happy Birthday, Tony.)
He'd have been 55 today. I didn't want it to affect me, but I can't pretend it didn't. It's a really strange combination of emotions - knowing that I'm happier and healthier now, knowing that I've found love again and pulled my life back together and survived an incredible loss. And still feeling off on… Continue reading Wipe the Glass (Happy Birthday, Tony.)
My giddy teenager
I've written about "my little" before, but I'd stopped updating my index at that point and I can't remember what I titled it, so ... I dunno, it's somewhere in that mountain of writing. So is the metaphor of all of these different aspects of my personality being passengers on a "bus" that take their… Continue reading My giddy teenager
Shooting spitballs at butterflies
They met in the caterpillar colony, under the shade of a broad leaf. "What are you doing?" she asked. "I'm shooting spitballs at butterflies." he responded. She seemed puzzled. "The butterflies are beautiful and free. Why are you shooting spitballs at them?" He shrugged. "They're not any better than we are. And when I hit… Continue reading Shooting spitballs at butterflies
I don’t know who I am without you
When he passed away, something extraordinary happened: I survived.
Willie Nelson and Monstrous Gorillas
I've got Willie Nelson's nasal voice in my head singing "you are always on my mind," on the upswing. The first time he says it in the verse when it sounds hopeful, not the second time when it sounds complacent. Last night I had a dream I was driving a white van with a bunch… Continue reading Willie Nelson and Monstrous Gorillas
Continuing Education: A Delicate Rant
...in order to maintain their good standing in their field they are required to participate in a minimum number of hours of continuing education, or they lose the right to practice under the guise of being "licensed" or "certified."
Shards of Glass
When you find the source of your jealousy/insecurity, you can start doing the work to address why you behave the way you do.
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